oh my...

I have never been more ready for college and yet not ready at all. 

First of all, Im bored to death. Now that Metrocon is over (I have a totally seperate journal for that soon BTW) I have nothing to do. Nothing. Because Im virtually trapped. One of the things pissing me off right now is I will be heading to college without a CAR. Do I need it around campus? No. But maybe I dont feel like staying in a dorm every weekend you know? I also dont think its okay to get all dressed up to go somewhere and WALK THE DISTANCE IN HEELS. I just want the freedom, and it makes me SO FUCKING mad that I just got my license and drove my moms car for 2 months. Now im back to square one, and is ANYBODY going to help me? Doubtful. 

The other thing is, my aunt and uncle as much as I love them, ARE DRIVING ME INSANE. Mostly with their snide comments that at times are actually hurtful. I think I made a journal about this once, but its a recurring issue. I have no self confidence and it doesn't help. Like, why ask me how I do something and then shoot it down like its stupid!? YOU ASKED ME. I TOLD YOU. FUCK. 

This is just complete and utter bullshit. Tomorrow I have to go over to my college because im not done with the housing process. Which they blame me for. IM SORRY I DONT REMEMBER EVER HAVING GONE TO COLLEGE EXCUSE ME.

I want to curl up in my bed and not come out or have any human contact of any kind for at least a day, because honestly people just have something to get on my nerves with. I hate how I moved to be stress free and im still stressed...