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Screaming

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In my head there are millions of what I imagine to be voices all screeching like a pterodactyl...

Constantly...

Because I am just frustrated as hell XD 

Neko has a job now~! With real live moneys :3 Its an electronic store. I originally started at the customer service desk, and my trainer was a complete and total BITCH -_- HOLY HELL. She was so rude and expected me to know everything even though she never explained what she was doing. Plus she acted like I wasnt even there half of the time. So now I have been moved to cashier and I was given a new trainer and everything is a TON better ^^ 

HOWEVER 

Even with this change, I am still "trapped". I hate how something goes well for me and then something goes horribly wrong to ruin my happiness. Its happened all year and its been really hard to cope and accept any genuine form of happiness. For example:

-Graduated from high school = grandmother dies two days later
-Moved to new state for college! = now cannot attend college until next year
-Mother got a new job! = has now sold the house so I can't move back in


Its these things and a ton of others that get me. So I seem like a constant unfeeling bitch because I cant help it. Life wont let me!!! 

Supposed to hang out with friends tomorrow...maybe it wont work because I live so far. Just waiting for fate to punch me in the boob I guess 

Night everyone! XD 
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Whyyyy

2 min read
151013 eunhyuk enlist By 银赫家族EunHyukCN 1


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These pictures cause me physical and emotional pain TT^TT I hate this haircut, I hate this month, I hate that he has to enlist this year, I HATE THAT WE HAVE TO DO THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE IN KOREA

FUUUUCK

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Trying to not focus on this. I have to perform Bang Bang Bang with a dance group tomorrow at the college, and I am super nervous 0___0' We've been drilling everyday for the past two weeks and I'm TIRED.

I've been giving more thought to my career choice (little late for that) and I'm thinking about how I want to incorporate photography in my future. (UMMA- you'll be happy to know I designed the logo for our dance group and it looks so good :3 We have it on a shirt now) More specifically cosplay/makeup photography because I love when people not only take pride in their costume but they have the personality to go with it. I love how natural it is to them, like they were born to do it. 

SO HOW DO I DO THAT
OR CAN I FREELANCE IT? X3 

I want bed but first...

I must upload a chapter. LATER
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ACK!

1 min read
I feel like I need to dust off everything XD 

FRIIIIIIICK

I SUCK HARDCORE.

I need to get back into this, because I am literally wasting away without you guys TT^TT 

Bleh. 

Word of warnning, no one mention anything SUJU related ATM or I'll start crying -_- my babies...MY BIAS IS LEAVING I CANT. TAKE IT. VAL HOLD ME </3 

Since job hunting is going to consume my morning, I'm going to clean this sucker out tomorrow afternoon. I have nothing else to do so why not. 

Miss you all! See you soon!
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one of my headphones is weaker than the other. Its messing with me. :/ 

Anyway

I am forever in the SUJU feels right now. Im not sure if its because not my ultimate bias, but my TOP 2 BIASES ARE LEAVING (Siwon gets love too, hes so perfect) and Im so upset, or because we won International Artist AND fandom on the Teen Choice Awards, but I just...Im done XD 

I just watched KCon on Mnet Countdown and almost screamed because Siwons Engrish intro AND they did 2 throwback songs, Twins (Knockout) and Sorry Sorry (we have so many songs now that Sorry Sorry shouldnt be considered a throwback but it is XD). I was so happy <3 

D and E comeback soon, also! * Im throwing my heart into it completely, thats the last time I'll hear my babies TT^TT NOOOOOO

ramble ramble, heres a list in order of the groups I fell into: SUJU, SHINee,BigBang, Ukiss, B1A4, VIXX <- most recent. Thank Ken ;) 

The Kpop cover group Im part of just did a cover of "Crazy" by 4Minute. SO. MUCH FUN XD mostly because the MV isnt even in sync, so it doesn't matter what we do LOL Ive made a ton of friends through this thing,Im happier than anything <3 

My cousin always Skype s her internet friends, I was wondering if you guys were ever up for that when I get my new laptop? My face/voice are terrifying so its your funerals XD I think when I just wake up I look like a poor Mexican Muppet but I'd at least put in contacts so you dont have to see my INSANELY MAGNIFIED EYES XD 

Im off to read Eunhae smut. And cry. Or laugh. Not sure X3 TA TA! 
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*continuously touches your face until you notice her...*

I've been a bad person! >3< Its been forever since I've been on a real desktop for this! I can't wait to get my own laptop ^^'

Basically I'm having a heart attack that SUJU is in my country FOR ONCE...and they're all the way on the OTHER SIDE!!! YOU FOOLS! COME DOWN HERE XD I'm seriously all in the Donghae feels right now, I just...I can't X# I'm terrible. I want to squish him. 

The 'Devil' comeback has me dying slowly...so slowly... I love every song on that album, and then there are messages at the end. FREAKIN' SIWON'S ENGLISH XD 

I'm fan-rambling! ^^ sorry!

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Too much has happened to really write it ALL down, but I am taking a year off before starting college because all kinds of financial destruction has occurred and I am severely disappointed. -_- But at least I get to have all of my dorm stuff and fees paid and not go through all of that insanity again. I've met a few new people through the college and this Kpop dance cover group I'm doing, and its so fun! ^^ I'm really happy I'm trying it. This isn't even a lie, I'm a social cripple (thanks to, yours truly, the American educational system) so all of this is new for me. I even went out to dinner with a LARGE group of people and didn't have a heart attack 0__0 Progress! 

...but still single XD 

AAAANAYWAY

I'm going to a VIXX concert next week, and even though I'm not totally into them I still like their music a lot. Also, its not every day that a Kpop group performs in the US *shoots a hateful look at Super Junior* AHEM

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I'm off to upload some chapters I've neglected. My apology for you guys ^^' Thanks for sticking with me anyway
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