Its amazing how much has actually changed since my last journal post.
First and foremost...my grandmother died. Yesterday, the day before my flight left for Florida, she just...died that morning. The thing is, the cancer she had been diagnosed with a month or ago was COLON CANCER. Just about the most treatable cancer out there. But it spread to her liver in a short time. Which you CAN live without 2/3 of your liver so that shouldn't have been an issue. The main problem was my grandfather.
I hate to say anything like this because he is so distraught over this that he is insane. Literally insane. He talks to her and visits her at the morgue like she is still alive. And before that, we found out he had discharged her from the hospital against medical advice, did NOT give her the medications she required, and did not put her in rehab. She deteriorated to nothing in 2 weeks because she had no muscle work to keep her body in shape. She was a skeleton with skin on it, basically.
Am I grieving? In my own way, yes. I cried more over the stress I've had over the past week than anything else but that is on top. I had to quit my job thst had damn good people that I LOVED to work with, my mom went off to school for another job, and I just packed everything in my room into boxes in a week. -_-
Right now I am in Florida, but I ill be leaving again tomorrow for the funeral preparations. Great. I feel so much better but not 100% yet, and I've had tons and tons and TONS of support from everyone in my old town. It means a lot to me that they care and its helped me feel so much better.
The only thing that I really have to tell you in this journal is that I picked my college and I will write a post about everything I love about it so far.
- I will be computer-less until I can eventually afford a laptop. So I can try to post fanfics but probably not, and anything else including photoshop is dead completely. HOWEVER I will definitely be stocking up on editing programs when I get my computer.
-Metrocon is in a week...and some days haha. My costumes are ready AND I finally have a better phone to take videos and photos with. Prepare~
I will be back on soon I hope
love you all!!!