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I have never been more ready for college and yet not ready at all. 

First of all, Im bored to death. Now that Metrocon is over (I have a totally seperate journal for that soon BTW) I have nothing to do. Nothing. Because Im virtually trapped. One of the things pissing me off right now is I will be heading to college without a CAR. Do I need it around campus? No. But maybe I dont feel like staying in a dorm every weekend you know? I also dont think its okay to get all dressed up to go somewhere and WALK THE DISTANCE IN HEELS. I just want the freedom, and it makes me SO FUCKING mad that I just got my license and drove my moms car for 2 months. Now im back to square one, and is ANYBODY going to help me? Doubtful. 

The other thing is, my aunt and uncle as much as I love them, ARE DRIVING ME INSANE. Mostly with their snide comments that at times are actually hurtful. I think I made a journal about this once, but its a recurring issue. I have no self confidence and it doesn't help. Like, why ask me how I do something and then shoot it down like its stupid!? YOU ASKED ME. I TOLD YOU. FUCK. 

This is just complete and utter bullshit. Tomorrow I have to go over to my college because im not done with the housing process. Which they blame me for. IM SORRY I DONT REMEMBER EVER HAVING GONE TO COLLEGE EXCUSE ME.

I want to curl up in my bed and not come out or have any human contact of any kind for at least a day, because honestly people just have something to get on my nerves with. I hate how I moved to be stress free and im still stressed...
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  • Listening to: Mommae_Jay Park
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  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: OJ
Its amazing how much has actually changed since my last journal post. 

First and foremost...my grandmother died. Yesterday, the day before my flight left for Florida, she just...died that morning. The thing is, the cancer she had been diagnosed with a month or ago was COLON CANCER. Just about the most treatable cancer out there. But it spread to her liver in a short time. Which you CAN live without 2/3 of your liver so that shouldn't have been an issue. The main problem was my grandfather. 

I hate to say anything like this because he is so distraught over this that he is insane. Literally insane. He talks to her and visits her at the morgue like she is still alive. And before that, we found out he had discharged her from the hospital against medical advice, did NOT give her the medications she required, and did not put her in rehab. She deteriorated to nothing in 2 weeks because she had no muscle work to keep her body in shape. She was a skeleton with skin on it, basically. 

Am I grieving? In my own way, yes. I cried more over the stress I've had over the past week than anything else but that is on top. I had to quit my job thst had damn good people that I LOVED to work with, my mom went off to school for another job, and I just packed everything in my room into boxes in a week. -_- 

Right now I am in Florida, but I ill be leaving again tomorrow for the funeral preparations. Great. I feel so much better but not 100% yet, and I've had tons and tons and TONS of support from everyone in my old town. It means a lot to me that they care and its helped me feel so much better. 

The only thing that I really have to tell you in this journal is that I picked my college and I will write a post about everything I love about it so far. 
- I will be computer-less until I can eventually afford a laptop. So I can try to post fanfics but probably not, and anything else including photoshop is dead completely. HOWEVER I will definitely be stocking up on editing programs when I get my computer. 
-Metrocon is in a week...and some days haha. My costumes are ready AND I finally have a better phone to take videos and photos with. Prepare~ 


I will be back on soon I hope :) love you all!!! 
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  • Listening to: Turn Down for What- Lil Jon
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  • Eating: Cookies (that im currently choking on)
  • Drinking: OJ

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I have never been more ready for college and yet not ready at all. 

First of all, Im bored to death. Now that Metrocon is over (I have a totally seperate journal for that soon BTW) I have nothing to do. Nothing. Because Im virtually trapped. One of the things pissing me off right now is I will be heading to college without a CAR. Do I need it around campus? No. But maybe I dont feel like staying in a dorm every weekend you know? I also dont think its okay to get all dressed up to go somewhere and WALK THE DISTANCE IN HEELS. I just want the freedom, and it makes me SO FUCKING mad that I just got my license and drove my moms car for 2 months. Now im back to square one, and is ANYBODY going to help me? Doubtful. 

The other thing is, my aunt and uncle as much as I love them, ARE DRIVING ME INSANE. Mostly with their snide comments that at times are actually hurtful. I think I made a journal about this once, but its a recurring issue. I have no self confidence and it doesn't help. Like, why ask me how I do something and then shoot it down like its stupid!? YOU ASKED ME. I TOLD YOU. FUCK. 

This is just complete and utter bullshit. Tomorrow I have to go over to my college because im not done with the housing process. Which they blame me for. IM SORRY I DONT REMEMBER EVER HAVING GONE TO COLLEGE EXCUSE ME.

I want to curl up in my bed and not come out or have any human contact of any kind for at least a day, because honestly people just have something to get on my nerves with. I hate how I moved to be stress free and im still stressed...
  • Mood: Grouchy
  • Listening to: Mommae_Jay Park
  • Reading: -
  • Watching: -
  • Playing: -
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: OJ

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BeastScribbles Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav!! :D
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thanks for the fav!
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Thanks for the fav :D
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Stickman16 Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Pssst, Gizzy.  What's your opinion on power ballads?  And what if they had a kpop twist to 'em?
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Japaneko Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I dont even know what a power ballad is? xD
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Stickman16 Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Ah well.  XD
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Thanks for the faves
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Japaneko Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Np ;3
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Awww ^w^ Thank you :hug:
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